| So hey no school on friday YES I get to see Josh on Tursday and Friday so excited....Were going on a double date.. Then were going on a date lol im so happy... Well also well i miss him alot. Im doing so much better i haven't felt like this in a long time. I feel like im actully loved like someone acutlly wants me. GOD I WANT HIM TO HOLD ME he is going to call me soon.. YEY!!! Heheheheheheehe I LOVE JOSH... k well i got my meds im a litle better thank god but still sick.. So yea the tittle has a lot to do with me!! here is the song...Explains sam.... Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
No more have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a puddle of misery
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost
So here I am
I wanna be by myself
And I think you’re fucking someone else
No more have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of puddles
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost
Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way
Now I sit here by myself
Think about somebody else
How could you let them take you away from me
There’s somebody else Bye guys... Melinda
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| Hey yall got my phone payment today not a very nice bill considering text messages Lol... God i almost got my phone taken away..It was great well i have get my wisdom teeth done...YOUCH im happy right now Finally since when i have no idea..Josh is very understanding and Im so glad for that....And no sam were not going out..but right know im so happy with him.. Also im grounded Lol Who could of guessed right ohh well im still going to rebel so why does it matter anways..My mom knows that..Well next tri is soon and exams are this week.. wish me luck...Also Im getting sick again because well i have no pills that will stop bleeding...LOL Im going to get so sick and its already kicking in.. Broken soul |
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| The outcome wasn't suicide but i thought it was. I got people to notice how bad i was actully hurting so when someone trys to seek help please listen to them. Sam and I well lets just say were still together but i did leave him if he never walked to my house 13 miles away i wouldnt even talk to him. He's put me through hell and no he knows that. Took him a while. When he relized i wasnt going to answer my phone or take him back he cracked. So were working at things right know. Josh and I are friends maybe something will happen but who knows. I went to the Clinic i passed out when i started my period i was supossed to be checked about things so know i am. They took 5 viles of my blood hopefully something will come good of it. Im done with this site. So Jessica you can really go fuck yourself and ur no longer wellcome at sams and dont bather calling him. Your a bitch not me so go fuck yourself. Im sick of being goody around you so things will stop but your a bitch and wont let things settle so go and kill yourself for all i care. You'll fuck up doing that also so i wont stop you ohh and straches for cutting dont count as cutting for wanting attention and dont think for one split sec that i cut. im not as low as you are. So Jeanne if u want my new site let me know i will give it to you. Byes and Kisses to you all who were nice to me. Broken Soul |
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| Well im not doing so good. I hurt Someone I truly loved the most.I ruined it just to see if something else would work. Know i lay in bed and cry hoping someday he would at lest want to be my friend. Hoping someday he would want to talk to me or see me again. I failed in this life. I wish i had a delete key so i could go back to june and pick him i should of listened to him i did every other time. Know my life is filled with painless crys and 17 year old stuipedy. Im not selfish like he says but, he is a basterd who just needs help and needs to stop yelling at me. He's going to lose me one of these times im going to run and he is never going to see me again. He doesn't realize how much he is killing me. Instead I wear a smile. Act like everything is fine. But instead i want Josh Who i love so much. And no it isnt becuz im alone Josh please dont think that. I did get over you but, know that i was talking to you i belive im falling in love with you all over again. I belive your the one im supossed to be with your the one who is supossed to hold me through out the night says he loves me. But now you hate my guts and never want to hang out with me. I would rather be friends then nothing at all. I understand how it is hard for you to get out there. But tell you this I miss You and I want to be with you. But i guess that will never happen So i say this now you will always have a place in my heart. and will never leave my thoughts. Good Bye, Melinda Goodenough |
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| So yea well he doesnt want to stick with me through thick and thin and i dont want to wait around forever for him to be like Mindy im ready want to go back out. Well i will be here but im sick of being yelled at im sick of him never doing anything for me. Why doesn't he call me? Why doesn't he come see MY family instead of always his? Why can't i wirte him letters? What is up with COKE so yea suicidle rite now not fucking care what is happing right know in my life. The principle is going to go why did u through food in the cafeteria why did u skip school. Im going to go Have u ever been so suicidle were u just dont fucking care any more on what decisionss u make. He'll call pine rest whos going to miss me well not me im not here anymore. I dont even know who is typing this.. No one is going to FUCKING read it. Broken Soul p.s my dad is going blind, I still love Josh and Sam |
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